Friday, December 31, 2021

Another Year is Gone

2020 was bleak…and 2021 has been bleaker. As it closes today and rolls into 2022 in only a few short hours, I can’t say I have high hopes for another year. Grocery shopping is getting more and more painful, not to mention the idea of providing clothes and other things for my family. It’s pretty certain any pay increase is not going to catch up to the inflation…if Ed even has a job next year. Vaccine mandates aren’t making that look very promising. As if the media wasn’t a bunch of ridiculous liars to start with, the fact that they can’t do anything but re-hash the continual lies is crazy. Aren’t they driving themselves insane? We have a demented President, a deluded Vice President, and a bunch of other politicians who do anything except their jobs. Any hopes I have for 2022 only make me cry. They probably won’t happen. I should just be glad if we make it through each day.

 

I should also remind myself that 2021 did have some high points. At the very least, I hardly ever wear a mask anymore, suffocating on my own germs. We all got Covid and got that out of the way, only Ed and I actually having any sickness at all. The kids were all asymptomatic. We travelled over the summer which was nice. The kids are doing well, despite the world they live in. We have a roof over our heads, no matter how small this house gets with each passing month. Ed does still have a job, and so do I. Our needs are met and the Lord does allow us to save some, car repairs and other surprise expenses aside. We really are blessed no matter how weary the world around us is.

 

I also reached beyond my reading goal this year. I aimed low, one book per each letter in the alphabet. I exceeded that by reading two per letter except the letter Y. I just couldn’t find a second title on that one I wanted to read. I also read at least 20 more books, including some on my own shelves. It’s also been fun revisiting some books this year I’ve read aloud to the kids: Little House on the Prairieand The Magician’s Nephew.Both kids love Narnia.

 

I have to say I am glad 2021 is over. I can’t say I’m excited about 2022. However, it does make John’s cry in Revelation all the more sincere: “Even so, come, Lord Jesus!”

Monday, December 27, 2021

Christmas!

Ellyson is one of those kids who lovesto get her picture taken…except when she doesn’t. And when she doesn’t, there is no way under the sun you are going to make her sit there and be a part of the picture. So, I apologize in advance for the lack of nice Christmas pics. Ellyson wasn’t having any of it!

 

In a lot of ways, our Christmas started the weekend before Christmas. My sister Abby threw my sister Jenny a “surprise” 30thbirthday party on Saturday. The surprise part was the arrival of our sister Katey and her boys from New Hampshire. Our sister Sally, currently in Florida for Naval training, flew in Saturday and met the rest of us at Abby’s apartment. We all went to dinner and had a really good time:

 

Five of the six of us: Sally, me, Katey, Abby and Jenny.

 

Emry, meanwhile, was at her dance team Christmas party. Then she joined all her cousins, my parents and Ethan at one of the local play areas. Ed and Elly joined them all for dinner. I think my parents were exhausted. I only got one panicked call that night, so it was 95% successful.

 

So, we all convened at my parents’ following church the next day: six of the eight of all, one spouse, and all six grandkids. We had a Christmas dinner, some gift opening, and tried to get pictures of all six of the grandkids. Ellyson did a bit better for this photo op following the drama of the morning’s:

 

The best of a dozen from the morning…

 

And the best of the afternoon with cousins Jay, Curtis and Benito.

 

Thankfully the week before Christmas was quiet. No events, some school, a lot of anticipation and prepping. Christmas Eve was spent at my parents’. Sally was still in town and Caleb had arrived for a couple of days. We opened a gift each that evening, and took a ton of gifts home for the morning. I confess they all had melatonin before bed to help them sleep. Still, when Ellyson woke as usual about 4 in the morning, Emry was awake and lamented, “Mama, this night is soooo long!”

 

Still, they didn’t awake until 8 to cause mass chaos in our living room. Paper and gifts flew everywhere. I’m still not 100% of who gave them every gift they received. Ellyson was worn out by gift #3. And quite content with her Baby Shark for the bathtub and Emry’s baby doll. (Yes, Emry’s. We’ll let her use her Christmas money for one of her own!) Our trip out to my parents’ was delayed with all the rain and flooding on their property, so we went out later to enjoy leftovers. Not exactly the epitome of the day, but I don’t think the kids even noticed. 


Ethan and one of his gifts.


 

Emry and Ellyson opening a gift.

Thursday, December 23, 2021

One Night Last Week...

At the end of the day, you can only speak from your own experience. Covid was nothing. I had it. It was like a flu. The only weird thing was the lost of my smell and taste. It took weeks to come back, and I’m still not sure I’ll ever have it back 100%. I’m glad I had it. The anticipation of contracting it is over, and since it’s highly unlikely that one can get it again….I’m good!

 

But food poisoning? Well, I honestly thought I was going to die.

 

Monday night last week at about ten o’clock as I was finishing up some work project, I started to feel a little off. I figured I was tired. Ellyson had been waking up multiple times at night and even a nap that day didn’t seem to help a lot. So, I got ready for bed, read a little bit, and fell asleep. 

 

About 2 o’clock, I woke up feeling sick to my stomach. I lay there and rubbed it, feeling a bit better. I heard Ed pull into the driveway…followed by a very loud bang. Had he forgot to open the garage door? Had I left a bike or something in his path? Had he gone too far and crashed into our stored washer and dryer? None of that seemed right because he’s usually careful backing into that tight space…and I was too sick to really care. Then Ellyson woke up.

 

I knew whatever had happened, Ed would be angry and wouldn’t want to deal with Ellyson so I got out of bed. He came in and told me he had hit the passenger side mirror, knocking it off except for the wire it hung by. Still not well enough to care, I wandered into the girls’ room, looked down at Ellyson in her crib, and felt the whole room start to spin. I thought I could make it to the couch, called for Ed, and promptly blacked out.

 

The next thing I knew, I woke up to Ed shouting my name and shaking me. I couldn’t figure out why he was waking me up from the best sleep I had had probably since conceiving Ellyson. As I came to, I realized I was lying on the floor in our tiny hall (basically a space for four doorways and a closet to converge), my whole body aching and shaking, and figured out I must have fainted. Ethan came out of his room and the only thing I knew was that the pajamas he was wearing were not the pajamas he had gone to bed in. The conversation went something like this:

 

“He’s wet his bed,” I told Ed.

 

“Melissa, are you okay? Are you hurt? What is wrong with you?” Ed still slightly shouting.

 

“I’m fine. I’m cold. I’m fine. You have to change his sheets. He wet his bed.”

 

“What?”

 

I finally convinced Ed I was fine on the floor and couldn’t move that moment anyhow, so he needed to go help Ethan change his sheets. I’m pretty sure Ed thought I was nuts, but since I was apparently alive, he did as he was told. When he came back, I was ready to be moved. But no further than the couch where I curled up and asked for two heavy fleece blankets. I was still sick to my stomach and chills wracked my body, but I wasn’t feverish. Trying to figure out what could be wrong, I finally settled on food poisoning. The soup only I had eaten for lunch must have been slightly off. And with my taste still not fully recovered from Covid, I simply hadn’t noticed. It was the only explanation I had.

 

Assured that I wasn’t going to die right that very moment, Ed went about his usual routine of getting ready for bed. I shivered away on the couch, rubbed my belly, and dozed a little. When he came out of the shower, he asked if I wanted another blanket. I told him I wanted to go to bed. He’s one of those people that radiates heat, and I needed to be warm. So after helping me to the bathroom, he helped me to bed.

 

I can’t say I slept well. Ellyson woke one more time and cried herself back to sleep. I tossed and turned, feeling sick and cold. I did doze off, though, and awoke again at 4:30. I knew I had to get to the bathroom, but I also knew there was no way I could do it alone. I lay there and went through all my options for nearly ten minutes before I finally just woke Ed up for help. Good thing, too. I made it two steps to the foot of the bed before I collapsed, the room spinning into darkness again. Then I promptly threw up everything I had in my stomach. And finally felt much better!

 

I tried to help, but poor Ed had to clean up the floor. I threw everything in the washer, took a shower, and we both went back to bed. I awoke the next morning feeling much better although weak, tired, and extremely sore. I hardly ate all day, and we did school on the couch. I don’t bruise easy, so all I had in the way of wounds is some scratches on my face. But I couldn’t touch the left side of my face, arm or leg. That whole side of my body felt bruised and battered, and did for days. I had headaches for the next week, mostly because my shoulders and collar bone hurt so much. Ed said the way he found me laying up against the bin the closet, twisted up in an odd way he was surprised I didn’t break my neck. The best he could determine, I must have hit the half-opened folding closet door in such a way, it must have hit the wall and allowed me to bounce into all the coats and slide down. I’m grateful for I could have hit any doorways or walls, not to mention simply landed on our fake-wood-laid-on-concrete-with-no-padding floors. Ed’s grateful I didn’t look like someone whose husband beats her up.

 

As for the car, we’re still waiting on the parts to fix that. I guess that could have been worse, too. All I know is, I feel like we’ve barely survived 2021. I would say here’s hoping 2022 is better, but as painful as grocery shopping is these days…yeah, not betting on that!

Monday, December 20, 2021

Visions of Christmas Past: Cookies

I have been making Christmas cookies since…well, I don’t remember a time when I didn’t make Christmas cookies. It seems that Christmas cookies are a Sturm thing. I don’t recall them being prevalent at Ogilvie get-togethers. Pie always seemed to be the thing. (Chess pie mostly…I never could figure out who liked chess pie!) But on the Sturm side, everyone made cookies! Grandma Sturm even shipped cookies in our box of Christmas gifts. You just had to be careful to select the pecan Sandies and not the anise Wedding Cake balls. I’m pretty sure we all made that mistake at some point!

 

Eventually Christmas cookie baking officially started the day after Thanksgiving with gingerbread cookies. This was always an elaborate bakeoff, ending in Grace’s “Walmart wreath”, a cookie stacked two inches tall with icing, and my assembly line style. Oh – and either Katey or Jenny had to spill half the silver balls all over the place. Over the rest of the month, out came dozens and dozens of Sandies, surprise cookies, Spritz, fudge, peanut butter balls, coconut balls, white almond bark pretzels and lemon snowflakes. I do mean dozens.For it’s hard to make only one batch when three people want to make Spritz. And while in New Hampshire we had our pastor’s kids over to dip pretzels, so we had to make what felt like hundreds (plus a really good mess). Good thing we hosted a Christmas party every year! Now with us all gone, some of those cookies have fallen by the wayside. However, because Sandies, pretzels, and Spritz are three my mom still makes, I don’t make them. Even though I really should make Spritz. Emry at least can probably work the cookie press now.

 

As a single woman, I still made Christmas cookies…and took them to work. I certainly didn’t need them at home! Our first Christmas I attempted one of Ed’s favorites: clothespin cookies. I haven’t made them again…they take too long! Then came Emry and I thought she should be introduced to things like gingerbread cookies. I think that lasted all of two Christmases before I gave up. I hate to decorate. And I hate helping my kids decorate even more.

 

But I lovegingerbread. So, a few years ago I found the solution: gingerbread crinkle cookies. They’re easy to make. The kids can roll them into balls and into the sugar. And, this year, they became Ethan’s favorite. We also make one other things I didn’t grow up with: Reese cup cookies. The kids love making those. I love thumbprint cookies, but I never got around to it this year. (But since I bought the jam, I’m thinking of making them at Valentine’s.) I also like to try one new one every year. This year I tried two: homemade Samoas and an almond cookie. They were okay. The Samoas were a huge hit at Bible study, but I’m not sure I’ll recycle them. 

 

I do know this, though: I need a bigger kitchen. As you can see, it’s a bit tight for four of us:

 


Emry, Ethan and Ellyson making Christmas cookies!

Thursday, December 16, 2021

Vision of Christmas Past: Lights

I’m sure for Emry’s first Christmas I was more conscious of including her in a multitude of things. Of course I knew she would remember none of them. I also knew she couldn’t do very much at eight months of age. It doesn’t mean we didn’t try…and, naturally, took lots of pictures. Like this one: 


Emry and the Christmas lights – 2015

 

She loved the lights. If I recall correctly, she wandered over to them as I was making sure they worked and just started playing. Knowing her personality today, of course she did. They shimmered! Shimmery Emry.

 

Two years later, along came Ethan. He played with the lights a lot longer than Emry did, probably for an entirely different reason than they shimmered. Electricity. Power. I haven’t met a member of the male species that isn’t attracted by it.

Ethan and the Christmas lights – 2017

 

Last year we didn’t let Ellyson play with the Christmas lights. She was only six months old and had just started sitting up on her own. So this year we made sure when we brought out the lights we had her pause in her play for a photo op. It didn’t go at all like we thought it would. For unlike her siblings before her, she had no interest whatsoever in the Christmas lights. No amount of coaxing or over-acting fun on our part helped. This was as good as it got:

 

Ellyson and the Christmas lights - 2021